So I've been trying to follow my recovery plan because Im a badass, but I have been far from perfect.
Last weekend I had another emerg visit after taking 5mg of ativan. Not enough to die or anything but enough to numb out the pain. Unfortunately this also lowers my inhibitions so I took myself to the ER. I ended up cutting in the ER bathroom. On my wrists. I haven't cut on my wrists in years! I didn't care enough that it would show this week.
I've been slacking on my goal setting. I did it for a week then stopped last Friday. Picked it back up again today. My daily goals for the rest of the week are:
Thursday (Today): go to gymnastics
Friday: wake up early to finish my assignment
Saturday: get studying by 9am
Sunday: email potential supervisor for next year
I didn't go to class at all this week so next week's goal is to go to all classes. I have to go tomorrow as well to hand in am assignment.
I've got this. I can get back on track and STAY on track.