Thursday, August 4, 2016

why live

Life goes on. And sometimes that's the problem.

I found out that someone in my school program committed suicide. And nothing seems to have changed.

It makes me wonder, if the sun will still rise and the stars will still shine do we really make an impact. I didn't even hear about the death until a few days later. Life kept on going on. I went to meetings, wrote in my journal, did some math. I ate breakfast lunch and dinner. So did everyone else. Life kept on going. The removal of his life had no effect.

But that's such a broad view. If we zoom in, we see that there's more to it than just that. If we zoom in we see the kid's mother and father unable to leave their bed, devastated by the loss of their son. When we zoom in we see the kids friends, who need to take a year off of school to cope. We see an empty bedroom that won't be entered for months.

When we zoom in we see why we need to live.

We live for the little things, and that's okay.

We live for fresh fruit in the summer, and snow angels in the winter
We live for hugs and kisses by our closes friends
We live for our family, our siblings and those who look up to us

I think one of my many struggles, is that I think too broadly. I ask why instead of why not. I try to find purpose in things that don't need purpose. And that's something I really need to work on.


  1. It is so heartbreaking that you found someone from your school killed herself....there are no words for that tradgery. When I was at Menniger. a supposedly "excellent" place for treatment", I had many awful experinces, , the very worst, ending in a friend killing herself, 3 days before I was to go much for a supposed
    excellent treatment facility.....I am so very sorry about your friend and I can say I know how it feels and how so called treatment centers are a FARCE.....I really hope we can both find the real help we need! Sending so much lobe!

    Sending love

    1. Thank you for sharing and for all the love, it is truly appreciated <3