Thursday, July 28, 2016

Inpatient

I've been admitted to the acute mental health ward. I'm allowed my phone which is wonderful, and the staff seems quite laid back and caring.

I overdosed twice in the past two days, which is what resulted in me getting here.

I'm hoping my stay isn't too long as I'm hoping to get on a plane and fly to Vancouver in a couple weeks. But a week long stay wouldn't do me any harm.

They keep on asking me what I need. I don't know what I need. I just know that what I'm doing right now isn't working. That spending my nights wanting to overdose or actually overdosing isn't how I should be living my life. I really hope this stay helps me. I'm fed up living like this.

I have reasons to stay alive but none of them matter if I'm dead. And that's the current though process I'm struggling with. I'll continue writting and keeping you all posted.

Thank you so much for your unconditional support.

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  1. I hope you're okay. I'm sorry you're in such a bad headspace, but really glad you're somewhere safe. I hope they can help you start moving forward again <3

    xx

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    1. Thank you Bella, you're warm thoughts always make me smile <3 Hope you're doing well

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  2. I hope you get better soon. I know what it's like to be suicidal, and it's not fun.

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    1. Thank you, I agree that it's not fun, but I'll get through it. Hope you're hanging in there

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  3. You are strong girl. The fact that you let yourself go to the hospital for help is amazing. I'm so proud of you and you better know it. You're a great person and you will get through this. ��
    -Teresa/Terry

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