I've been doing some DBT skill work lately in therapy, and I have to say, I find it extremely frustrating.
When I'm really distressed I can't do my skills. They're great in theory. And the emotion regulation skills are life savers for me. Keeping up with hygiene, exercise, meds and (relatively okay) food intake, really helps me not dip into crisis. But it's the crisis skills I struggle with.
Doing something like radical acceptance, or TIPS is great in theory, but when I'm that distressed, I can't get myself to do them. When I'm extremely upset, I can't just radically accept my situation if I can't change it. I don't want to either. I want to fight it. Similarly, when I'm very upset, I can't leave my bed, never mind taking a cold shower or doing intense exercise.
My therapist tells me that I can use my skills it's just extremely difficult. I feel like that makes it sound like I'm not trying. I am trying. Sometimes I physically can't leave my bed. What am I to do then?
The past couple days have been rough. I had a couple upsetting conversations with my dad, with regards to my trauma and my sister. I missed out on two days of work because of this. I made it to work today though, and although I'm struggling I'm determined to push through it. I see my doctor tonight and I'm going to do some choreography as that always puts me in a good mood.