I don't want to go into full and complete detail about my boyfriend drama, but this week has had its ups and downs.
The short story is, my boyfriend broke up with my on Monday.
We got back together on Tuesday.
The long story is, it's hard to take care of someone who's sick. Especially when it's not your job to take care of them. Especially when you're sick yourself. It seems like my boyfriend put a lot of pressure on himself when it came to my health. I also don't notice those that I hurt when I'm hurting. Because when I'm hurting I feel like I'm taking on the pain of the universe and the weight of the world. I forget that other people have thoughts and feelings and emotions. I forget to have compassion.
My boyfriend and I are continuing our relationship. Because we love each other and we make each other happy. But we need to learn to communicate better. I need to learn how to communicate in a compassionate way when I'm upset, and he needs to learn that it's okay to have to step away or call someone else for help when I'm in crisis.
But we're learning and we're growing and that's what happens in healthy couples.
So I guess I'm adulting. I'm solving conflicts and maintaining long term relationships.
It's hard but it's worth it.