I guess this is why they call it an addiction.
The temptation is back. Yesterday I felt invincible, and today it's what I want, no need.
The taste, the flavors entering my mouth. The sweetness and creaminess settling in. It's what I'm missing. What I've been denying. What I need.
Getting to that state where I'm so full I can barely move, but crawling over to the bathroom. The release I feel when I let it all out. The high I feel when I'm empty again.
The power I feel knowing that this is my dirty little secret. The one thing no one can take away from me.