I hate waking up at 5am every morning in a panic because I'm sure that there is something I forgot to do.
I hate falling back asleep and then missing my alarm because I slept so badly.
I hate waking up without enough time to get myself to class on time, so I simply skip class because I can't stand the thought of walking in late and all eyes turning towards me.
I hate that I need to take ativan some nights and it knocks me out before I can get all my work done.
I hate that my heart rate goes from 60bpm to 90bpm just thinking about going to group.
I hate that I start to shake before every exam I write, so my writing is always sloppy.
I hate not being able to relax.
I hate anxiety.