I can't stop.
I hate it so much.. I enjoy the food for the first few bites, and then I hate it.
Everytime I binge and purge I promise myself it will be the last time. It never is.
I'm binging on thousands and thousands of calories, not purging it all, and hating myself for gaining weight.
I'm throwing food away, then going through the trash to dig it out.
I'm spending all my Christmas money, buying food with credit cards, and steeling, just to binge and purge. Even though I hate it.
What is wrong with me?
As much as I hate it, I love it.
I want to stop but I don't.